On the eve of the official, official release of Final Fantasy XIV, if it actually does happen and the servers come up, I want to actually give abit of a love letter to my beta character, Rinna Lin.
Rinna Lin is actually a character that I recently started using for rpgs. A bow and arrow user, I started seeing her as a second part of me. More so than ever in Final Fantasy XIV. You could not believe how happy I was to have gotten a beta invite (and to add to it, before one of my friends too who REALLY wanted to beta, which happens to be to the left of Rinna Lin.
We didn't had much time together, only at the weekends that Square allowed us to play with the beta, but I started to seriously bond with her. We met new and old friends together, we fought, die, and won against some pretty BIG monsters, and we traveled to so many awesome worlds! Looked and stared up at the amazing night sky, both of us, dreaming, with our comrades that the night will never end. Her actions, her animations, and the way she interacted with people was so pure and fun, I couldn't help but grow attached to her, even though I knew eventually..generally, she will disappear into the world of Beta. And unfortunately, due to some issues I personally had while playing the game (which funny enough happened also for Final Fantasy XI), I had done the worst thing possible for her: I wasn't there to say goodbye. I had put her to bed in her inn, promised her that before the end of the beta, we both will have a right goodbye to each other. But..I didn't do that. I gave her to have eternal sleep. I wonder..was she dreaming of when we will finally meet again?
Is it silly to feel this bond with an MMO character? By the end of the beta of FFXIV, I felt like a part of me was there. In Rinna Lin. I was so disappointed at myself, that I allowed personal annoyances prevent me from having my final fellwell to Rinna Lin...however, there was a bright light. I am so glad I was allowed one more chance to be with Rinna Lin, with the final, Phase 4 of the Beta. Unlike everyone else at the time, I didn't had connection issues at all (well, save for a log in issue that was in fact really annoying), but...I was saved, thanks to my friends telling me to go to the Japanese servers. They say, the NA and European beta servers are going to stay up for alittle bit longer..but...I didn't need it. I just needed one night, to do what I did wrong. Though she looks alittle different, I am glad, I've finally have my closure with Rinna Lin. And I am glad too! That she will stay alive and well now, being that the character is now saved in my account than just deleted like Phase 3 of the beta.
I'm so happy for you Rinna Lin...you've made me so glad to have been in this world. I wish I could stay with you longer in fact! Your such a big part of me now. I've grown so attached to you, and your actions. I'm so glad you and me shared those moments together, including our (for now) final fell well to each other as we wanted! As much as it's awesome to end with a big group, or hang out with friends, I'm glad we had that moment together. Both of us acting out your actions together. Dancing, cheering each other up. I'm happy, we got to wave goodbye to each other...thank you, Rinna Lin. I'm so happy to have met you.
Rinna Lin is actually a character that I recently started using for rpgs. A bow and arrow user, I started seeing her as a second part of me. More so than ever in Final Fantasy XIV. You could not believe how happy I was to have gotten a beta invite (and to add to it, before one of my friends too who REALLY wanted to beta, which happens to be to the left of Rinna Lin.
We didn't had much time together, only at the weekends that Square allowed us to play with the beta, but I started to seriously bond with her. We met new and old friends together, we fought, die, and won against some pretty BIG monsters, and we traveled to so many awesome worlds! Looked and stared up at the amazing night sky, both of us, dreaming, with our comrades that the night will never end. Her actions, her animations, and the way she interacted with people was so pure and fun, I couldn't help but grow attached to her, even though I knew eventually..generally, she will disappear into the world of Beta. And unfortunately, due to some issues I personally had while playing the game (which funny enough happened also for Final Fantasy XI), I had done the worst thing possible for her: I wasn't there to say goodbye. I had put her to bed in her inn, promised her that before the end of the beta, we both will have a right goodbye to each other. But..I didn't do that. I gave her to have eternal sleep. I wonder..was she dreaming of when we will finally meet again?
Is it silly to feel this bond with an MMO character? By the end of the beta of FFXIV, I felt like a part of me was there. In Rinna Lin. I was so disappointed at myself, that I allowed personal annoyances prevent me from having my final fellwell to Rinna Lin...however, there was a bright light. I am so glad I was allowed one more chance to be with Rinna Lin, with the final, Phase 4 of the Beta. Unlike everyone else at the time, I didn't had connection issues at all (well, save for a log in issue that was in fact really annoying), but...I was saved, thanks to my friends telling me to go to the Japanese servers. They say, the NA and European beta servers are going to stay up for alittle bit longer..but...I didn't need it. I just needed one night, to do what I did wrong. Though she looks alittle different, I am glad, I've finally have my closure with Rinna Lin. And I am glad too! That she will stay alive and well now, being that the character is now saved in my account than just deleted like Phase 3 of the beta.
I'm so happy for you Rinna Lin...you've made me so glad to have been in this world. I wish I could stay with you longer in fact! Your such a big part of me now. I've grown so attached to you, and your actions. I'm so glad you and me shared those moments together, including our (for now) final fell well to each other as we wanted! As much as it's awesome to end with a big group, or hang out with friends, I'm glad we had that moment together. Both of us acting out your actions together. Dancing, cheering each other up. I'm happy, we got to wave goodbye to each other...thank you, Rinna Lin. I'm so happy to have met you.